Remembering the Begining

Today I was going through my notes of Bible studies I have collected over the years and came across a song I had printed as a reminder of the beginning days of my conversion to Jesus.

Early one morning on my way to work, going through a very hard time in life, while crying and contemplating suicide, a song by Styx came on the rock station I was listening to. He was singing about whether there was a Heaven and said, “Show me the way.”

As I listened, knowing the words I began to sing along. When the song ended I looked out of the windshield to the starry sky and cried out to God asking Him, “Why aren’t You showing me the way?”

The next Sunday I was invited to church and the Preacher’s sermon inspired me to attend church regularly and I began to read the Bible starting in the book of Proverbs. After about 5 months I finally surrendered to Jesus late one night while watching a TV evangelist.

I bring all of this to your attention because sometimes the longer we walk with Jesus, the more apt we are to forget the humble circumstances of our own beginning, judging the way God chooses to lead other people to Himself.

We must remember not only does God bring people to Himself step by step but He also uses the lifestyle in which they live.

For instance, in my own life, a mature Christian would advise the seeking one against listening to rock music, but that is the very avenue in which God tugged at my heart.

We usually advise people to start reading the Bible with the book of John, to understand God’s love for us, yet God leading me to start reading in Proverbs brought my prideful “do good” attitude to the humble acknowledgment that I will never be good enough.

And everyone advises against watching the money hungry TV evangelist, yet without the convicting words of the evangelist that night I might have lost the opportunity to give my life to Jesus.

A lot of the time we have our own idea of what it would take for a person to see the truth, but we are making our assumptions on the actions we see that person display, not on what is truly going on in their heart.

A unique characteristic of God is that he can see what is hidden in a person’s heart. 1 Samuel 16:7 states, “But the Lord said to Samuel do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him, for God sees not as man see’s, for man looks at the outward appearances, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Not only can he see the hidden person in the heart but he also knows exactly what it will take for that person to come to him. Even if it is rock music and TV evangelists.

Father, thank you for bringing me to saving faith in you and help us not to judge one that is seeking you. In the name of Jesus, amen